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What I Learned

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It is almost the end of the year 2018. Some of my friends think that the year went by fast. I personally think that this year has been so slow. I also had thought that this year has not been the best so far.

                     A lot has happened this year, a lot of emotions were involved this year. It has been a roller coaster that at some point I wondered how I got by each day.  I always dreaded the morning but now I dreaded every moment. I had always thought that I was a fighter but most times I saw myself sinking. I was sinking without even struggling. It was like I consciously let myself to be engulfed in whatever I was fighting with occasionally. I wondered if it made any difference fighting and then going down again. I was told that I was being too negative at some point by people who cared. I don’t know, but I hope they really cared because it is really stressful caring for people who didn’t care in return. I tried to explain that being positive comes with a lot of strength …

Just in my thoughts

I went to get my blood drawn sometime this week.  I actually hate needles, I really do. So, sitting down there and feeling very apprehensive. The lab technician decided to engage me in a discussion after he noticed my demeanor just to cheer me up or get me to forget about the needles or my imagined pains for needles. I don’t know which one really but I appreciated his efforts. My friend was also there for moral support but she’s in the same condition as I, we both fear needles so she wasn’t really of any help like we planned. One of the questions he asked me was; “if I liked reading?” I didn’t know what to answer. My friend replied him, “yes”. I thought about it, am I really a reader? Or is that how I present myself to be. I know very well that I used to be a reader but I wasn’t sure if I was still one. He went ahead to ask me what I had read last; I replied, “Ecological biology”. It was for class anyways; I’m not sure I would have read it if it wasn’t for class.

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What to do?

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What to do?  She has been caught up in her web of lies. It’s only a matter of time before she becomes hysterical.  A damned hypocrite with no shame. I watched her shiver with fear and shame. She was scared but didn’t know the reason. She wasn’t really the perfect one around or in town but we all envied her or I know I did. I admired her and wished to be her. She was smart and got her way around with words. I was glad that she was a part of me. We were all part of the same entities but I wasn’t her. She was better than the rest of us. She was slow to anger. We made fun of her sometimes because she was the typical good girl. She was a humanist, had a love for mankind and humanity. She represented everything good. We took turns in being present. When it was her turn, we were seen as smart, wise and well-behaved. She was a source of an inspiration to people around or maybe she just knew how to say the words. She will always tell them, keep pushing and don’t give up. She always preached kind…

Grateful Heart

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Have you ever found yourself being ungrateful? Have you ever been so shocked at how selfish you as a human being can be? Well, I have and it took me a while to discover it. It is not just me though, most of us are in this together. We live each day and we get so used to our daily schedule that a little shake up leaves us angry or better still irritated. We forget how privileged we are to actually leave our homes each day and go back to our homes. We get angry over the wrong issues, we get mad at the wrong things. We take our blessings for granted. We forget that we are not really entitled to all these good things we have been receiving.
Sometimes, we don’t actually remember how privileged and blessed it is to be alive. What a great gift it is to be healthy with all body parts working well. We complain about little things like not having a good paying jobs, not having enough money, or better still stress. We always tend to forget or maybe just me that it takes someone alive and healt…

The Age of Socialization

What does it mean to live a double life? We live in a time where we really know each other but we don’t really know one another. A time where we don’t even know ourselves.  There are a lot of things going on at this time and therefore many distractions too disrupting our lives. This is the age of socialization and advanced civilization. Millennials have new ways, opinions and views about life and how it’s supposed to be. Some older folks think millennials are just being so extra while there are some who agree with millennials.

The age of great socialization where social media has totally taken control of everything which is not necessarily a bad thing. It is a good idea but it’s a platform that promotes double life. I know a boy who is going through a lot in the real life but has an amazing, happy and successful life on social media. I know a girl who has a better life than this boy but because of his life on social media, she is envious and jealous of this boy due to his portrayal o…

Reasoning

I believe that there is a reason for everything. So, instead of the chemistry law that states, “For every action, there is a reaction” I believe that for every action, there’s a reason. So in this way I usually try my best to understand people even when their actions doesn’t really make sense and most are so inhuman but not in all cases though. Some actions just don’t require understanding because no amount of reason will justify it.  I am not doing this to be perfect or get the “good girl” title because I don’t really care for those. I have always been misunderstood most of my life or so I think. Therefore, I don’t think that those titles will mean anything to me. I just do this because I somehow expect it to be done for me. It’s like the golden rule for me, “do unto others as you will like them to do unto you”. I try to reason with people just so in the nearby future I am expecting someone to understand that there is a reason for my actions.


The world is filled with different kinds…

The Subtle Act of Being Kind

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I am a strong believer and what I mean by this is that I believe in many things. Things which are not necessary the norms of the society, and also things that I believe one with a conscience should believe in too.  One of those things is kindness. I am a strong believer of the act of being kind. Being kind unlike most people think doesn’t actually take a lot of work. It doesn’t take a lot of energy.

Being kind to people is as easy as winking. It might take a little bit of effort but trust me, it is worth it. You can choose to see it as following the golden rule. The golden rule is simply treating others the same way you will like to be treated. Imagine a world where we all treat one another as we would treat ourselves. Learn to say nice things to people, compliment people. Tell them you like their shoes, clothes instead of jealousy or anger that you can’t afford them. Ask people how they are doing without expecting to be asked back. Help people out when you can. I happen to be in the…

Roles...

Life, a game we all actively play. Some win and some lose. Life, a mystery we all have to solve. To some it's quite easy and to some it's a hard nut to crack. To some it is an interesting puzzle, there is always a missing piece and a bonus which includes a lesson on each part. 
Okay, I might be boring you with life phrases but I think it is important because we all play a part in this life one way or the other consciously or unconsciously, willingly or unwillingly. The point is we all here now so we have no choice than to live it.
In life, there are some points we come across people we make a difference in our lives, they cause a great impact in our lives positively. They change our mindset and like the wind they vanish right after they do that. You don't know how it happens but it just happens. these are the people whom if given a choice you would like to keep around you for a lifetime, but the forces of life one way or the other takes them away from you. I talked to my mom…

Are we being too sensitive?

We are in the 21st century and it is 2018. Yes, that is pretty obvious but it just shows how far we have come. It is like a new era where everyone wants their opinion to be heard, young and old included. If you are among the young folks like I, it is pretty cool for our voices to be heard and acknowledged. If you are among the older folks, they probably think that our generation is being too sensitive like Dave Chappelle (he is my favorite comedian by the way).
So what do these folks really mean by being too sensitive? Does it mean that they don’t really like how things are now or the way things are going? Like I said earlier, this is a new era where things have changed from the last twenty—twenty-five years which I think is good for the second time. We live in a kind of world where women do not want to be catcalled anymore when walking down the street by some rude disrespectful men. It is an era where men who do such things get called out on social media and are fired from their jo…

They don't define you

Last week was the women’s week if you ask me. This was because Thursday being the 8th of March was women’s international day while Sunday, the 11th of March was mother’s day in some part of the world like Nigeria and England. It was so sweet seeing and reading heart touching, warm and nice messages from women and men too to women. It was good and so nice for women to be reminded of how strong they were because that was the main theme in everyone’s message, and of course including me. Yes, even some friends teased about it, “like if you don’t post about women, who will?’ “Oh, it’s an official day for you to be a feminist.” Statements like these don’t get me annoyed anymore, actually it amuses me lately. I mean I could use a little laugh here and there.
So, I won’t be talking about women’s day today, or about being strong or rather knowing that you are a strong being who can break down too like every creature. I won’t be telling you today that you are not an angel and don’t need to be…

Stronger than You are

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We all have that moment when it seems like everything is just not working out. It seems like you don’t even have control of anything happening in your lives anymore. You have just left everything to fate and the universe but it seems like your own fate and the universe are conspiring against you too. They have turned their backs against you. All you know is that it is just not fair. You can’t explain what is happening. You are basically drowning and you know that too, but too tired to scream or swim back. The air is not even fresh anymore. You doubt every single part of you and your decisions. You suddenly realize how lonely you have been, and you just hurt but don’t know why. You have categorized yourself as a weak person, and all you want to do is just lie down in bed all day covered up with that blanket which seems like your only company now. You want to just lie under the blanket and sleep since it is your only escape from reality.
It is okay, I am not going to judge you or comp…

Yearn for Hope

Walking slowly, ear buds stuck in her ear listening to music with volume turned to the highest. Isolated from the world, noise, happy chatters and laughter’s of people around her. It seemed liked the birds needed her attention today too because they all sang in unison but she paid no attention to any of it. It is her mind, her music and her against the world now. No, actually it is her music and her against her mind. Yes, she is been in a battle with a part of her. Crazy right? But that’s just what you think, and now she will begin to see herself as one in the near future. ***
Now, she is sitting down, still listening to music with the volume so high that it made her brain begin to hurt, and yet still wishing that the volume of the music suppresses those living creatures, those monsters in her mind. She is beginning to smile maybe because she was told to smile and be happy, or maybe because it did seem like she was defeating those monsters again. She was going to triumph those shrie…

What They Told us

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The recent movement online popularly known as the #metoo has helped to enlighten many who happen not to be aware of the high rate of sexual harassment and rape. This will make you wonder how many people walking around you are actually rapists. It is not written boldly on the face and they do not go around introducing their selves as rapists. The guy in suit sitting next to you might have had sex with his date without her consent which makes him a rapist. Most men are beginning to evaluate their selves and checking if they had raped someone before in the past before without knowing it. So this means without this movement, most men without knowing have been raping women. This is very disturbing but I am more thrilled and curious why that would be so. I am curious why most of the victims of the #metoo movement were women. Does that mean that no male has been sexually harassed, violated or raped? That is a big NO. So, why are more men likely to rape their date or why is there few or no ma…